Heart is like a black cloud sinking in and out of happiness
fighting through to find the light i fall and stumble along the way
never knowing if i made a mistake
searching through and trying to find the love hidden inside..
when will it be in sight.. i thought i found him thought i found it.. then he pierced my heart with his sword..
now im twisting and turning and pulling the sword stuck through my chest when will the pain stop .. why did he hurt me so..
this sword is tearing me into pieces the sword of deception ..
i feel like to him im not enough ill never be enough..
i want to be his angel the queen of his life..
but he drags me down with his actions ..
and i stand all alone with tears in my eyes..
my heart blackened by all his lies..
when will i find it the love i search for
that i seek the love that i want the love inside
im blinded by his smile the way he acts when no one else is in sight
then she appears and I am the second wheel his focus and attention leaves me and goes to her
I feel so much deception im bitter but im to proud to show
how much hatred I feel inside with every lie that he tells and every glance he takes at her
the sword is buried further through whats left of this tattered heart of mine
I curl up on the floor searching for an exit
then I see a light from their eyes the ones who have been there for years
the people who mean the world to me... my friends
my sanity is given back to me
through their eyes and im picked up dusted off
I search further for the love
I deserve the love I know is out there hiding
I will not continue to hide behind a mask of lies
im not as strong as I look and I wont be taken down any more by his deception by his lies